It happened...I knew eventually it would. I was in church this morning, feeling the Holy Spirit with me, feeling sweet in my heart, and Preacher yells "sing an old one!" to the choir. We are in Jubilee this week...he doesn't typically yell at them. The piano started and "I'll fly away" starts playing. My heart stopped for a second and I closed my eyes. This was the song I got so upset over last week, watching Ellie sing. With my eyes closed I could see her sweet face dancing and singing. Then a smile crept over my face and the tears stayed in my eyes. I listened to the joy in the song, and that wonderful peace that God continues to provide me came. And I was comforted with the thought that if something did happen to Ellie, I know where she would be, I believe in a heaven where there is no more cancer or pain. I know she would be loved by Jesus and that I would see her again. Feels weird to type those words, but those were the exact thoughts rolling through my head. I thank God for carrying me through those few minutes.
Ellie had no appointments yesterday...I don't think Richard knew what to do with himself...besides go find some yummy BBQ! Ellie got to enjoy some sunshine!
I can just hear her...."Ta-Dah!"
I miss these two so much! Its only been two weeks since I last saw them, but it feels like an eternity.
Ellie will be done with her first round of chemo next Sunday, just shows you how fast time goes. She looks like she's grown a foot. I miss her snuggles, I miss Richard's snuggles....those just aren't things that anyone else can give you. I cannot wait to hug them again, to be a family of 5, even if it's just for a few days.
This is going to be a long journey, but I am so thankful that Richard and I know the Lord. Without Him we would struggle with all the questions of "why us" and being mad. But knowing Him, having Him in our hearts, I feel makes this a sweeter journey. Helps us find the blessings in every situation, no matter what. I continue to pray that someone, because of our story will come to know Jesus like we do! Its one life change you will never regret!
Prayers, Praise and Pink
~Carly
6 comments:
Again so beautiful!
Stay strong!!(:
Carly, your blogs are such a Blessing! thank you for sharing-we are continuing to pray and pray! ((hugs)) from the Harlow Family
I had that very same thing happen to me with the same song!! ( it was my moms fav who had cancer and has flown away to be with my sweet Jesus!) I got a huge since of peace when I hear it now BC I know we will all be together again! ~amy a
I, too, am of great faith but I have to tell you...if I had a child or grandchild with cancer, it would test every fiber of that faith. You all are fighting the good fight and I know the Lord is so proud of all of you. Your blog, though it breaks my heart to read it each time, is very inspirational. You don't know me (my daughter had your Mom as her teacher years ago) but I want you to know I pray for your sweet Ellie and your whole family every day. God Bless you with His peace and comfort.
Great time it is!
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