What I learned today

Well this brings a whole new meaning to multitasking....Noah's on his potty....we've been here for 5 minutes already...so I thought I'd make the most of my time!


I realized this past month that I'm being used! God has decided since everything is going so well in my life, I will help him out by listening to those close to me and giving them a word of encouragement. I think it's a job I can handle...since it's just like my real job, except I'm allowed to talk about God without getting reprimanded! I've really been trying to find the positive lately, especially for those friends I have that are really going through some tough stuff...I think I've been doing a good job, and I keep praying that God will continue to use me to help others. Well that prayer was answered recently, I was able to help out someone very close to me, I shared words that I was afraid to share and really opened myself up. God said, "good job Carly, it's all going to be okay!" And then He said "now I'm going to test you and see if you really want me to answer that prayer, if you really want me to use you to help others"...except I didn't hear that until today!

Today in church, Preacher said, just because you pray a prayer, doesn't mean that God's going to fix it Himself, He may be using you to fix that problem. And off went the light bulb!!! I've been praying for someone a lot, but it's someone I don't normally talk to, someone I don't see very often, and someone I usually hold a grudge against. I guess I just wanted God to make their life better and help them out, without involving me. Well out of the blue, this person contacted me and wants to get together to talk. Of course my first reaction is no, and then why me, and how can I get out of this? Now I see this is like two prayers in one He's working on. Somehow, someway I'm being used to answer my own prayer....kinda brings new light to "be careful what you ask for." I asked for it, so now here it is, now its my choice to prove did I really want it or was I just praying that prayer because it sounded good and right?
I don't know how this is going to end, I just hope that I can be the person He wants me to be. I hope I can look beyond the past, the hard feelings, and the letdowns and somehow find a way to be there for this person and help them make positive choice and changes in their life, since it is what I prayed for!