I should have known what a good day it was going to be when Ellie got up on her own and woke me up, she usually just lays there until I poke my head in. She ate and smiled. As I rolled the suitcase to the back of the van again...I didn't know what to expect. We got to St. Jude and there was lots of parking open (that hasn't been the case recently as we've been hiking a few days through the lots!) we checked in and the registration lady told me, like she does every day, just how blessed I am (I know...but it's nice to hear it!). After we got her blood work done, we had to wait (you'd really think I'd be much better at this waiting thing by now). As we went to get her snack bag, there was a group doing arts and crafts with the kids...that happens a lot around here. As we walked up smiling faces were greeting us...we couldn't pass them by! They were with an organization called "Fitness for a Cure" and they raise money for St. Jude. They have a performance team who had traveled from Boston to visit. As we made our picture frames, Ellie loosened up...there were stickers involved so she was on cloud nine. Two frames later we still haven't gotten her snack bag yet...we headed that way when more friendly faces stopped to talk to us from this team. Ellie was taken away by some of the girls on the team and off she went to make another frame. I was left talking to some wonderful women. I got to share our story, I got to share just how God has lead us down this path. I easily share my faith when I type, but sometimes in face to face conversations, I get nervous (worried what they will think) but today was so easy. 45 minutes later, we still don't have our snack bag, but Ellie is actually talking to people, we have a beautiful blessing bracelet, a necklace and an invite back to the noon performance. Biggest blessing, the time flew by waiting for her blood work results! Oh and she requested they sing and dance to Jingle Bells which they happily did out loud!
So Ellie's ANC didn't just go up a little...it nearly tripled. Again I watched this little girl start chatting and being silly with her doctor. We were a go for chemo...so we went to get our last meal in before going upstairs. She chowed down on a hot dog and we made it just in time for our new friends performance. She didn't sit in her seat long, up dancing she went...she even handed monkey to the girl beside us so she could go dance. Tears welled up in my eyes...this is my daughter, care free, full of energy and dancing feet, just like her momma! She wasn't nervous, she didn't hold back. As funny as it is to watch her not talk to people on purpose, it's sad at the same time, that it has gotten to this point. But today there is a change in her...she has even spoken to her nurse once we got upstairs.
I just can't thank God enough for today. I needed today, I needed to smile and see my daughter smile. I needed to not feel like my child had cancer today and she was just a 2 year old with some sweet dance moves! I needed to feel God's presence all around me. The next couple of days are going to be tough, so I am beyond grateful (and shouldn't be surprised) that my God knew exactly what to do and when to do it.
"Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!” Psalm 27:14
Prayers, Praise and Pink (from in the big house)
Can't exactly get the video of her dancing from my phone to the ipad, but if you go to Ellie's Facebook page, I'll post it there!