Dear Noah

Dear Sweet Noah,
You made me a mommy for the first time ever 6 years ago today.  You were my planned out pregnancy, that taught me, its not my plan.  Between getting gestational diabetes and finding out you were breech and I had to have a c-section, then going into labor before that planned c-section, you taught me that my best laid plans are for the birds.  I learned from you that being a mommy is one of the hardest yet most rewarding jobs.

From the beginning your vocabulary never ended.  You talk so much, but can be so quiet.  Your sense of humor is definitely your own, but I find myself laughing because you think its so funny.  You ask a never ending string of questions that drive me insane but make me so proud of how your little mind explores and wanders.

You are my snuggler, and I love that.  You always know the best times to cuddle up, you usually don't sit still while cuddling, but at least you are there and you enjoy it!

You can watch more TV than anyone I know and your love and knowledge of TMNT is amazing.  I think I know most of their colors now, but I'm still working on their weapons. Your imagination is so wide, and we have to pull you out of your room at times to come join the rest of us in the "real world". Your sense of adventure is surprising and I'm amazed at the little dare devil we find at times in you.

You happily have welcomed two sisters into this world.  Although you weren't as excited about the second, you still loved her like big brothers do and have treated them both the way sisters deserved to be treated.  You give in to what they want and try your best to keep them safe!

You are strong. You have a huge heart, that one day will take you far. You have been through more in your 6 years than most people will in a lifetime, yet you still smile that super sweet grin.  You have experienced death at such a young age, yet you still love the Lord.  You question why God does things, when most grown ups would just give up.  You know exactly when to hug us and you are never afraid to show your grief. You have learned empathy, which in my mind is such an important value.  You have experienced a little part of the world, that we can't completely understand, yet you believe one day it will all make sense.  You dream about heaven.  Your heart and your curiosity will do amazing things for others one day I am sure. Never give up on the dreams you have. Never let others' doubt in you steer your path.  Never hate yourself, because God made you just the way your are, and everything God made is beautiful.  We love you more than anything, but God loves you more, never forget that.  

I know that today was "kinda hard being 6 for the first time" but I believe your 6 year old year will be filled with amazing adventures, lots of ninja turtles, and more love that you can imagine (and fingers crossed maybe a brother)!  I'm so glad God choose me to be your Mom!

Love Mommy!

P.S. I will always love you more because my arms are wider, and sorry kid, but I doubt you will ever be 6 ft. tall with long arms :)

Deuteronomy 6:6-9 And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise.  You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes.  You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.